Grumpy Book Grrrl

a reader and writer

  Ah, the money in co-pays I’ve spent this past couple of months just to find out I have a common health condition: Aging. After x-rays, MRIs, and a CT scan, I have been informed I have “degenerative disc disease” (which isn’t an actual disease), and includes bone spurs, a couple of synovial cysts, and …

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I’ve dragged myself to therapy every other week since about July of this year? Use of the word dragged might indicate a poor attitude on my part from the get-go, but I have enjoyed it. Is that the problem? I have this idea that in order to receive that almost-mythical “breakthrough,” you need to be …

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Welp, I’m not happy and I’m not okay. So, I thought I would post a blog with sad gifs and memes just because I can. Say it like it is:   For those who have trouble expressing their emotions:     A job you hate can cause depression and apathy.     When you need …

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My depression and anxiety have reared their ugly heads more than usual. I seem to live with a certain baseline that I have learned to accept as “normal” for me. Jaw-clenched, fidgety, unemotional, busy mind… I think a lot of it has to do with my existential depression. I recently found out I have scoliosis. …

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As I get older, I strive to learn more about myself. If only I had spent my 20s figuring out who I was. Instead, I worried what other people thought and had unhealthy codependent relationships with people who were toxic for me. There’s no use crying over spilled milk now. All I can do is …

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