Grumpy Book Grrrl

a writer and reader

Hey guys, I did a thing! Well, I published a short collection of poems at Smashwords. The poems are about depression, loneliness, weight, society, haiku, and #vss365 (Very Short Story). Here is the link to get Heart Full of Skeletons for free.   I’ll share one of the poems here.   Hard to Afford Life …

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  Ah, the money in co-pays I’ve spent this past couple of months just to find out I have a common health condition: Aging. After x-rays, MRIs, and a CT scan, I have been informed I have “degenerative disc disease” (which isn’t an actual disease), and includes bone spurs, a couple of synovial cysts, and …

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I’ve dragged myself to therapy every other week since about July of this year? Use of the word dragged might indicate a poor attitude on my part from the get-go, but I have enjoyed it. Is that the problem? I have this idea that in order to receive that almost-mythical “breakthrough,” you need to be …

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My depression and anxiety have reared their ugly heads more than usual. I seem to live with a certain baseline that I have learned to accept as “normal” for me. Jaw-clenched, fidgety, unemotional, busy mind… I think a lot of it has to do with my existential depression. I recently found out I have scoliosis. …

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As I get older, I strive to learn more about myself. If only I had spent my 20s figuring out who I was. Instead, I worried what other people thought and had unhealthy codependent relationships with people who were toxic for me. There’s no use crying over spilled milk now. All I can do is …

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It’s pretty universally accepted that humans need social interactions in order to be mentally healthy and achieve a modicum of happiness. I typed in “humans need social interaction” in Google (it was partly filled in for me after I got through ‘humans need,’ actually) and articles populate like: “Why We Need Each Other” “Why We …

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This is going to be a rant. My anxiety and depression are flaring up like hemorrhoids and I have no other outlet, so I am spewing all my irritation and melancholy out and setting it free in the interwebs, where it will echo hollowly because no one gives a flying fluffernutter about my first world …

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So, my depression and anxiety have been rearing their ugly heads and since I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it, I thought I would write a blog! Here is a conversation-style dialogue between myself and depression/anxiety. Me: I want to get healthy and lose weight! Depression: Why bother? Me: I want to …

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